Introduction
For anyone who stumbles by this and reads it... my name's Kait, and this is my journal for weight loss. I really didn't want to do this, and resisted the "weight loss blog" trend for a long time before I realized it might give me some focus. So... here it is.
The first time I was told I was overweight was when I was 12 years old, at 175. I haven't been 175 since then. I've been overweight pretty much my whole life (I'm almost 23), so the idea of losing this weight seems like an impossibility... and a scary frontier. I don't know what's under here. I'm not a person who was thin and then ballooned out and knows what they want to get back to. This is completely foreign to me, and I think for a long time I've subconsciously stopped myself from doing what I need to do. Now, I'm out of college, I'm setting out on my own with goals of putting my actor training to use----and realizing that my weight is my primary inhibitor. I think being a "plus-size" actress has been extremely beneficial to my development as an actor and as a person, but I'm ready to move on and get to a thinner state.
This isn't the start of my weight loss. I've lost about 10-15 pounds over the last two months... about. I don't own a scale. That's a goal I need to accomplish, too. My eating habits have drastically improved over the last few weeks and I'm on the right track. I want to STAY on the right track. So I'm writing things down in the hope that I stick with writing things down, and get all my weighty frustrations out here.
Height: 5'6"
Current Weight: 220 231 (size 20)
My Bad Habits
• Compulsive overeating
• Laziness about exercise
• "Comfort food" trap----macaroni and cheese, huge pasta dishes, cookies (always eat too much)
• Over-salt most foods (especially rice and beef)
• Inability to stick to goals----they're good for a week and then abandoned
• Low self-esteem about appearance & constant preoccupation with how I look
• Overly critical of myself in photographs/video----self-hatred leads to comfort eating
• Fear of actually succeeding with weight loss goals
• Deciding that it's useless because I've always been "a big girl."
My Good Habits
Because those should be celebrated, too!
• Don't drink any soda, drink minimal coffee (2-6 times/month)
• Love fresh fruits and vegetables
• Love grocery shopping for healthy foods
• Avoid chemicals, additives, and other unnatural products in food
• Take pride in my appearance, and I know how to wear clothes that flatter my body
• Am flexible (especially for my size) and a good dancer!
• Love and accept my body "as is" and respect it enough to want to take care of it
They're Good Habits, BUT...
• I drink 1% milk, but I drink far too much (4-7 glasses/DAY)
• I love fruits & veggies, but I resist snacking on them
• I don't eat sugary cereal, but I eat cereal in excessive quantities
• I enjoy exercise when it's interesting, but I have trouble actually getting up and doing it
Goals
• Goal Weight: 160
• Buy a freaking scale!!
• Weigh 200 by May 1
• Find and stick to a consistent exercise regimen
Plan - For Now
• Keep a daily food (and exercise) diary
• Eat fresh & natural foods, avoid unpronounceable chemicals whenever possible
• Jump back on the horse any time I eat badly -- no giving up and going back
• Drink 1-3 glasses of milk/day instead of 4-7
• Eat healthier snacks in smaller amounts
• Exercise abs for at least 10 minutes/day -- other exercise 3 times a week for now
• Pamper myself by taking care of my body's cleanliness and appearance, not by eating
So... here we go.
